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I havent blogged in awhile, upsetting I know. =( but..lets see where to startttt... Today, this is really random, but my mom was just talking to me and she said, "Lauren, when you get a bit older and have little babies i want to tell you, make sure you send them to swim lessons at a young age, there are too many deaths related to young ones drowning" it was interesting to hear he say, I've always been very alert to such cases. Reading the newspaper every morning has swormed me with news. I hate and feel such anger when i read a story such as the caylee anthony story, trenton ducket, or ramsey. They are such horror stories. How and why could a mother or father do such a thing to such a beautiful child with such a life ahead of them. Anyone would have taken them in if the parents didnt want them. It disgusts me. okay. enough said before I get upset.

The other day i got to thinking...Life. Its about the joy and happiness that occur during the moments you live. Laughing and smiling my way through life. Liveing and Loveing ever step, every breathe I take. Why be gloomy and sorrow when you can be happy and joyful. I love to laugh and smile as many know. I love seeing the same. A smile is worth a thousand words. I believe that statement to be incorrect. A smile is not worth a thousand words, a smile is more than words can describe. People in my life make me amazingly happy, its crazy. Why worry so much, stress, get mad, angry...when one can embrace life, live it to the fullest. Living life, Loving Life, Smiling, Happiness, and Laughing, its the way of life, and Im loving it.

I am a very happy person, I do have my times however when I'm upset, but that NEVER lasts long and it takes alot to upset me. I do get worried and nervous alot. Not good. or is it? School frustrates me up the ying yang. Grades havent been going the way i have planned...I kinda dug myself a deep hole and im scurrying trying to climb out but cant find a ledge of the hole to grab onto. what am i doing? i feel lost at times. But somehow, something good always comes out of it. I'm SO optimistic. I know i will succeed in the end. Whatever happens, i will succeed.

As a junior, I love what im doing and where im at. Im having fun and happy! I laugh all the time, cry alot from laughs. Through some tears, things pull together. I think i will look back on highschool knowing i had a blast with all my buddies...okay i guess i'll name most everyone...since i never do...Kstinas, Lauren, Brittany, Neil, Matt Robin <3! Matt tavera, Omar, ms glum, simon, talia, kirsti, carol, caroline, camille, jenn, katie, abby, amber, chessy, alexis..the list goes on... the girlies, besties, buddies, b/f!, friends, w/e be their title, I LOVE! You guys truely make me ohhh sooo happy! The laughs, tears, smiles, amazinggg times have, so far, been unforgettable. with a little over a year left of highschool, it will be even better, more amazingly fun happy times. I cant wait.

As i look into the future, graduation, college, carerr, marriage, kids...I cant wait. I cant wait to see what in store for me! college is a scary thing to think about. Will i get in? where? will i be good enough? rejected? scholorships? sat? ahhhhhhh!

Prom is coming up and I cantttttt wait!!! I <333 Matt sooo much! makes my life sparkle soooo much!! He, being such a happy person, with an amazing smile is incredible! We have had alot of amazing times soo far and many more! <333 (:

Soooo...BEACH time!! i need a tan! haha The girlies and I are going for a night or two to ormond together! woot!!!

Well, i best get on my hw, American idol is on tonight!

With much love and laughter, LBB