the sun is setting...

As the sun sets, it seems i should be going on a run, as usual...opps. So, Neil advised me to write a new blog :) haha.

I must be honest, for as stressed out, with such mixed emotions that ive been having this past while...it seems this past week has been pretty chill. I mean, of course i still have school to freak out about, and grades (that need to fly up to my expectations) and other stuff ;) haha. but volleyball has come to a harsh ending... and band will be over shortly, so i have alot more time. and im liking it, i have more time to think and do homework and go workout. not to mention the weather is nice out lately, bit chilly though. lol. i guess i cant sleep naked anymore...lmao. unless someone wants to come over and keep me warm? hahah...okay, now im getting myself off subject. lol.

So, lately, i feel bad, ive been at band and vball so i havent spent much time at home with my parent ya know, so hopefully that will change soon...i have more time, therefore i can actually sit down and eat dinner with them. ...and then go hide in my room. lol. no but really, with Becca away for a long time, i miss her!! i know shes doing well though! and Nick's been gone for awhile now! miss u too bro! but i know they are where they want to be and are succeeding at what they dream of pursueing. I look up to them for that, and inspire to do the same, chase after my dreams and pursueing them. But right now, im confused about that...i dont know my dream. I dont know what i want to pursue. Of course im going to go to college, but i mean i dont know about majors, or careers. Seems like the pressure is on to decide, and decide wisely. SAT/ACT are coming up and important, considering i need to do well on them in order to make up for my GPA. But knowing my computer skills, im actually having trouble registering to take the tests. lol. i will figure it out. But, i guess i do know that whatever i do major/career/pursue will have nothing to do with mathamatics and computers/technology. hahhaha.

Volleyball has come to a bittersweet end. I love the sport, i love playing, im expremely happy/proud to say i came back and played/tried. I know i was "rusty" though. i didnt play for 12 months before tryouts, i should have guessed i would not have the same skill that i had my freshman year. but thats alright, i dont think i will be doing club volleybal. its a hard choice, stab in the heart really. I love playing, but i know it wont get me anywhere(college wise), therefore the money aspect would be a big burdon. I hope to go to some camps and play pick-up vball though in the mean time.

Wow, i just noticed, this is random, but then again, alot that i write is random...anyways..my hair got longer! lol. it used to be short. hhaa....cut it or grow it out longer?

Well, i best go finish math h.w to prepare myself for a quiz tommorow...

with much love and laughter, LB