stop and stare.

I can hardly believe myself, reflecting back to a year ago....it was my my sophomore year, i was in rehab from hell with pretty decent grades, no sports, or marching band. A year from then, now im a junior, playing vball and marching with well, grades that are not up to par. but besides the fact, this year seems soo packed! it seems like i have soo much to do, so much to handle, and no time whatsoever. But then again, im doing what i love, trying to succeed, struggleing not to fail. lol. but all in all, as much stress, frustration, and confusion im currently in, i can gladly say im loving life.

I went for a run today, while the sun was setting around the lake...and i must say, it was soo beautiful outside, i dont think my head has ever been any clearer. Nothing was around, no cars, no people, no animals, no thinking, nothing to stop me from running. The only thing on my mind was remembering Forest Gump, he just kept running. I dont think i have ever run so fast, honestly. I wasnt thinking about anything. It was great, not gonna lie. I stopped running at the lake and looked up into the sunset, ironically listening to "stop and stare", and wow, i know this prob sounds very dumb, but dang, it was a powerful feeling. Like, Idk, its hard to explain, like i guess it was a feeling of drive, like i know i overcome these obstacles that i have lately encountered...

I've had mixed emotions about various things lately, never had any of these issues before it seems. but i hope i get things figured out. trying to stay optimistic. anyways, i best get back to studying...ohh btw..

I must post this...just for memories. lol...friday night, turning left only lake mary blvd, i totally missed the median and instead of turning around it, i ran right over top of it! i was soo scared! i just jumped that deal, i didnt know anything else to do, cleared everything! lol, what a scary experience for a safe driver like myself ;). but i honestly am, just made a mistake, wont happen again.

well, with much love and laughter, Lauren