So, im sitting here typeing away, thinking way to much, of way to many things, not knowing what to think. so, right now, i have no idea where to start.

This year has been just a whirpool that keeps on spinning. When will it stop? when will things work out? why all the waiting?...



Homecoming was last night! I'm so glad Booper and Lauren went! Kristina, mission complete, we got them to go!! haha. and i think we all had a blast! thanks for coming over guys before! No details on the whole homecoming deal, lest just say great pics, great din, great friends, great after party, lovely ladies! woot! Honestly, this was the most fun ive had in along time.

And also, im really glad we talked guys. I love u miya chicas! what would i ever do w/o u all! i really try to listen to what u guys say, its just hard for me to believe it even though i know its right. Anyways, i dont really wanna post anything more on here about this...but i love u all! i'll be good... :)

But, im still perplexed on a certain situation, ive been reading. wait. i just said "ive been reading". i never read, most know that. lol. i try to read the novels, but it goes through my eyes and doesnt transfer to my brain. lol. but anyways, ive been reading a book booper gave me that is quite interesting and relatable. I struggle to beleive alot of what ive been reading though. I can come to the conclusion that i know might be true. I dont know what to think. Imma finish the book before saying more.

Yet again, a big part of this whirlpool im in, is grades. Grades, out there to make or break u. they are represented on your transcript. they will send u to college or send u home. give u a carrer, or a just a job. they are what should revolve around my highschool career. What more to say. and right now, there breaking me. ive never struggled so bad in all my classes. and damn its stressful, as many others know as well. We all have our expectations of ourselves and mine has not been met. I've always grown to learn, to never stop trying. "Everybody's human-everybody makes mistakes. If you laugh it off and keep going and try to give it your best the next time around, people respect that.”

with much continued love and laughter, Lauren