worried...

So, im pretty scared and worried right now...i have this fear right now...very weird. But honestly, i couldnt even sleep last night. not good. 2 main reasons why, plus a few minor situations. the 2 major situations: Showing my parents my disgraceful report card that ive been hiding...and the other reason is my messed up hip. 2 weeks ago i hit the floor for vball and it my hip sweeled and bruised and i didnt think much of it...but now i thought i had healed but i look at it and its bulging and like there is this piece floating around in my hip..and my mom saw it yesterday and freaked, and my dad was pissed that i hadnt said anything before. Its not that painful, i mean i cant like sleep on my side cause it hurts but its really not that bad, but it looks nasty in comparison to my other hip. damn, what to do, im soo scared, my parents want to take me to get xrays, but i dont want to. I mean, i do, so i can fix whatevers wrong with it, hopefully very minor, but then again, im scared. I dont want to go and get some news like i got for my knee. I bawled all night when i found out that i was going to have major knee reconstruction surgery and be in rehab for nearly a year and have to sit out of vball and marching for a year. it hurt emotionally and physically. I dont want to have to have anything like that again. UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. i guess i will just have to see what happens.

On another note, we had FBA yesterday. Lake Mary performed well, probably the best performance yet. But i guess it just wasnt good enough, we got an excellent. But we should be proud, i mean look at all the improvments that were made, a huge difference since county festival.

Well, i have a crap load of homework to do, and some thinking about what to do about my report card. :( and i need to bring my grades up.

With much love and Laughter, LB