WOW!!! It's been so long since I've visited this old blog of mine and oh what memories this brings back! I love going back and reading from years back in highschool and how this blog helped me.
For a little update, I couldnt be happier with where I am today. I am starting my third year at UCF as an Event/Hospitality major, working for the College of Buisness, a brother of AKPSI, enjoying the college life, discovering new things about myself, and in love (:
I'll be going up to South Caroline for a nice vacation soon and moving into a new apartment. I have some different plans for next summer 2013 in which im anxious for and hope they work out. I hope to venture on Bike and Build and have such a life experience helping others while growing as a better person myself.
Kasper is and always will be one of my close best friends. He's doing well and is 12 years old now!
I hope to keep up with this with years to come. I find it interesting to come back and read my thoughts!
With much love and laughter! <3 Lauren
Thursday, June 14, 2012
Monday, January 3, 2011
what a ride.
Wow. It's been so long since posting in this blog. It's now 2011! Summer 2010 was a fun one, the start of UCF was a GREAT first semester. Good grades and rowing for ucf now! I love it! I'm really happy with everything now. I miss UF friends ): and kasper and family, but i guess its just a new experience. This past winter break was a really fun one! haha lots of adventures ;)
Now we start 2o11. Here's to an amazing year, good grades, awesome rowing, healthy, wealthy, good relationship, and lots of fun :)
nowwww the bachelor is on...i'll post in time!
with much love and laughter, LB
Tuesday, May 4, 2010
getting to the end
So I have about 5 weeks of school left at Lake mary high. FINALLY! I'm SO excited for UCF!!! its almost there. with ucf comes apartment, new people, new friends, new guys, rowing, new experiences, adventures, parties, and fun times. I am truely more than excited to set out on this new adventure. IM DONE WITH LAKE MARY. Rowing should be pretty neat. Ive been working out alot to prepare!
Some things have been rough. thinking alot. working out and running seems to be something to clear my mind.
Kasper says hi. haha hes almost 11! :o
welp, graduation june 9th. classes start june 28 and i couldnt be more excited. :D
with much love and laughter, LB
Saturday, January 16, 2010
wow.
it's been such a long time since i came back to this blog. *sigh* so much has happened, theres no where to start! perhaps i should keep up with this blog..or leave and let live? not sure. well maybe i'll just give a short overview...
senior year, classes doing alright, homecoming queen, band sucks, no vball, passed out after giving blood, now im here. just me. thinking as i always do. college is just so close! looking at ucf.
so i just read some old convos, old blogs, pictures...such memories. make me teary eyed ): happy times, sad times...makes me look forward to the future more, but miss the past =/ i cant say im not happy right now, im great, livin life. somethings missing though ):
i have a big heart, lots of love to share...wondering when he will come around. guh.
maybe i shouldnt think so much about it...perhaps when we run into eachother we'll know...maybe not. haha so confused ):
but with colllege coming up maybe...but then again grades come first. well, now that im ranting on my thoughts perhaps its best to leave it. haha gotta go to work now. oy. i'll try to keep up with the blog. i wonder if anyone reads them anyways...but i guess it doesnt matter...puts my thoughts down. ha
with much love and laughter, LB
Sunday, May 24, 2009
:)
The end of school is nearing. Summer is approaching. Yipppeeee!!! I thought the school year would never end....wait it hasnt yet. haha. hopefully i can make the best of my junior year in the next week or so...bringing some grades up possibly. =/ So this summer... im SO EXCITED! Sun, beach, kayak, swim, online school =/, job hopefully, besties, girles, matt, parties, food, movies....i cant wait!
As highschool progresses, it seems it just keeps getting better and better (grades being the exception =/) this year has been fun with the girlies! and this summer will be even better! Matt makes me sooo happy! Im so glad to have him in my life. Next year i will be a senior! woop woop! much fun!
So hopefully i get a job this summer! i need to get a laptop! and save for college! :)
I think i just realized today how much i truly hate being home for hours at a time with nothing to do. just sitting here makes me so ansty. MUST GO OUT. :p
I also realized something else...people change. for the good and bad. why must kids our age turn to drinking and smoking? a drink here or there i deal with. but excessivly drinking and smoking is an absolute no no... really? why? i'll answer that question...they drink and smoke because they are possibly insecure about themselves or their current lives. Maybe they are mad or sad and looking for a way out and relieving themselves in such ways. maybe they are a little too happy and get carried away. maybe they are pressured into it. or maybe doing it willingly just for the hell of it. Of course ive had a drink or two, but never smoked. i dont see why. if ur hurt in any way, or any of the reasons or others that i listed, why not turn to something else. i dont really understand why someone would hurt themselves in such ways even though they know exactly what they are getting themselves into. One doesnt need to booze and smokeing to be happy. Why not be happy with the ones you love w/o being intoxicated or high.
Im actually really happy where im at now. i have my family, besties, girlies, matt, kasper and just living life. School is school. grades do matter, however, i dont know if this is a bad thing or not...but i am seemingly starting to ...idk the word for it...maybe care less? drift away from sucha drive? idk. of course i am still trying and such, dont get me wrong about that, but right now, everything just seems to be going well.
that prob made no sense to anyone. lol. my own thoughts though. haha
Congrats to those graduates of 09! Neil, Matt, Amber, Shelby, Kim...other seniors as well! You've worked are and now venture off to college! best of luck to you!
I cant wait to graduate! haha ;)
As i look back, i wish prom would come again. haha. it was an amazing night. but then again, i know there will be more amazing nights ahead of me. :)
Now i leave you with this quote...as we all take our own paths, good or bad, as Gandalf said, we must keep our feet, or there is no telling where we might get swept off to. I <3 LOTR.
"He used often to say there was only one Road; that it was like a great river: it's springs were at every doorstep and every path was it's tributary. "It's a dangerous business, Frodo, going out of your door," he used to say. "You step into the Road, and if you don't keep your feet, there is no telling where you might be swept off to.""
With much love and laughter, LBB
As highschool progresses, it seems it just keeps getting better and better (grades being the exception =/) this year has been fun with the girlies! and this summer will be even better! Matt makes me sooo happy! Im so glad to have him in my life. Next year i will be a senior! woop woop! much fun!
So hopefully i get a job this summer! i need to get a laptop! and save for college! :)
I think i just realized today how much i truly hate being home for hours at a time with nothing to do. just sitting here makes me so ansty. MUST GO OUT. :p
I also realized something else...people change. for the good and bad. why must kids our age turn to drinking and smoking? a drink here or there i deal with. but excessivly drinking and smoking is an absolute no no... really? why? i'll answer that question...they drink and smoke because they are possibly insecure about themselves or their current lives. Maybe they are mad or sad and looking for a way out and relieving themselves in such ways. maybe they are a little too happy and get carried away. maybe they are pressured into it. or maybe doing it willingly just for the hell of it. Of course ive had a drink or two, but never smoked. i dont see why. if ur hurt in any way, or any of the reasons or others that i listed, why not turn to something else. i dont really understand why someone would hurt themselves in such ways even though they know exactly what they are getting themselves into. One doesnt need to booze and smokeing to be happy. Why not be happy with the ones you love w/o being intoxicated or high.
Im actually really happy where im at now. i have my family, besties, girlies, matt, kasper and just living life. School is school. grades do matter, however, i dont know if this is a bad thing or not...but i am seemingly starting to ...idk the word for it...maybe care less? drift away from sucha drive? idk. of course i am still trying and such, dont get me wrong about that, but right now, everything just seems to be going well.
that prob made no sense to anyone. lol. my own thoughts though. haha
Congrats to those graduates of 09! Neil, Matt, Amber, Shelby, Kim...other seniors as well! You've worked are and now venture off to college! best of luck to you!
I cant wait to graduate! haha ;)
As i look back, i wish prom would come again. haha. it was an amazing night. but then again, i know there will be more amazing nights ahead of me. :)
Now i leave you with this quote...as we all take our own paths, good or bad, as Gandalf said, we must keep our feet, or there is no telling where we might get swept off to. I <3 LOTR.
"He used often to say there was only one Road; that it was like a great river: it's springs were at every doorstep and every path was it's tributary. "It's a dangerous business, Frodo, going out of your door," he used to say. "You step into the Road, and if you don't keep your feet, there is no telling where you might be swept off to.""
With much love and laughter, LBB
Sunday, May 3, 2009
AMAZING
Prom was last night! can you believe it??! PROM! its like every little girls dream! And honestly, it feels like a dream! I had such an amazing time! I love getting dressed up! I felt like a princess! hehe (: not to mention, Matt looked very handsome and cute! We had such a great time! ahh! dinner wasnt good but w/e, dancing and such and just being with him was more than i could ask for. The limo ride was cool too! most everyone looked stunning! ahhh I wish time could turn around sometimes and replay the times we love the most. have u ever had that moment, when everything just hits you all at once and realize this is happening, this is real. I'm so happy right nowww! Matt makes my world spin! When we were slow dancing, it hit me. <333! Just idk how to put it into words, an amazing feeling of just being with him, being at prom, looking pretty, it was all just amazing. Looking at pictures earlier today with my mom bought tears to my eyes. shh! hehe. I felt soo pretty! The pictures just looked so pretty! Matt and I looked HOT! hehe my mom was like "why are u crying?" lol. and i said, "i'm just happy" :) LG looked sooo pretty! Her and alex looked amazing together! I cant wait till next year, all the miyas together all dressed up! (: and we'll be seniors!
grades grades grades. fml.
AP and final exams are coming up. oyy. but staying positive. hope for the best.
Summer is coming! and summer school ugh =/ but summer will be fun! i cant wait!
Well, i best be going, with much love and laughter, LBB
grades grades grades. fml.
AP and final exams are coming up. oyy. but staying positive. hope for the best.
Summer is coming! and summer school ugh =/ but summer will be fun! i cant wait!
Well, i best be going, with much love and laughter, LBB
Saturday, April 11, 2009
It's like a fairytale coming alive
Last night, driving home, so happy, smiling, singing, staring up into the night sky at the glowing moon. Incredible. I dont even know how to explain. I'm so happy! This Spring Break has truly been absolutely amazing! and its not over yet! :o! Beach with the girlies was sooo much fun! movies, springs, bikes, kayaks, washing cars lol, and spending amazinggg times with matt! Last night it kinda hit. Like, idkkkk how to explain the feeling! I'm soo happy with everthing right now (excluding grades). So, as I sit here now, doing my research paper, I think, "damn, can i just stay 17 for a bit longer!" haha but then again, i look forward to the future soo much! Wondering what will happen, where will i go, when, how, what, why! :p
School in 2 days. DAMN IT! lol. but really. SB has been so amazing i dont want to go back to school. Well, i guess push through the rest of the school year and thennnn SUMMER!!! :D Prom is coming up!!!!! CANT WAIT!!! Matt and I will be HOTTIES! :)
Soooo...yes. this is a short post. I just had to get some smiles out! :D hehe why stress? why worry? smile and enjoy life! :D
With much LOVE and LAUGHTER, LBB :)
School in 2 days. DAMN IT! lol. but really. SB has been so amazing i dont want to go back to school. Well, i guess push through the rest of the school year and thennnn SUMMER!!! :D Prom is coming up!!!!! CANT WAIT!!! Matt and I will be HOTTIES! :)
Soooo...yes. this is a short post. I just had to get some smiles out! :D hehe why stress? why worry? smile and enjoy life! :D
With much LOVE and LAUGHTER, LBB :)
Tuesday, March 17, 2009
soooo....
I havent blogged in awhile, upsetting I know. =( but..lets see where to startttt... Today, this is really random, but my mom was just talking to me and she said, "Lauren, when you get a bit older and have little babies i want to tell you, make sure you send them to swim lessons at a young age, there are too many deaths related to young ones drowning" it was interesting to hear he say, I've always been very alert to such cases. Reading the newspaper every morning has swormed me with news. I hate and feel such anger when i read a story such as the caylee anthony story, trenton ducket, or ramsey. They are such horror stories. How and why could a mother or father do such a thing to such a beautiful child with such a life ahead of them. Anyone would have taken them in if the parents didnt want them. It disgusts me. okay. enough said before I get upset.
The other day i got to thinking...Life. Its about the joy and happiness that occur during the moments you live. Laughing and smiling my way through life. Liveing and Loveing ever step, every breathe I take. Why be gloomy and sorrow when you can be happy and joyful. I love to laugh and smile as many know. I love seeing the same. A smile is worth a thousand words. I believe that statement to be incorrect. A smile is not worth a thousand words, a smile is more than words can describe. People in my life make me amazingly happy, its crazy. Why worry so much, stress, get mad, angry...when one can embrace life, live it to the fullest. Living life, Loving Life, Smiling, Happiness, and Laughing, its the way of life, and Im loving it.
I am a very happy person, I do have my times however when I'm upset, but that NEVER lasts long and it takes alot to upset me. I do get worried and nervous alot. Not good. or is it? School frustrates me up the ying yang. Grades havent been going the way i have planned...I kinda dug myself a deep hole and im scurrying trying to climb out but cant find a ledge of the hole to grab onto. what am i doing? i feel lost at times. But somehow, something good always comes out of it. I'm SO optimistic. I know i will succeed in the end. Whatever happens, i will succeed.
As a junior, I love what im doing and where im at. Im having fun and happy! I laugh all the time, cry alot from laughs. Through some tears, things pull together. I think i will look back on highschool knowing i had a blast with all my buddies...okay i guess i'll name most everyone...since i never do...Kstinas, Lauren, Brittany, Neil, Matt Robin <3! Matt tavera, Omar, ms glum, simon, talia, kirsti, carol, caroline, camille, jenn, katie, abby, amber, chessy, alexis..the list goes on... the girlies, besties, buddies, b/f!, friends, w/e be their title, I LOVE! You guys truely make me ohhh sooo happy! The laughs, tears, smiles, amazinggg times have, so far, been unforgettable. with a little over a year left of highschool, it will be even better, more amazingly fun happy times. I cant wait.
As i look into the future, graduation, college, carerr, marriage, kids...I cant wait. I cant wait to see what in store for me! college is a scary thing to think about. Will i get in? where? will i be good enough? rejected? scholorships? sat? ahhhhhhh!
Prom is coming up and I cantttttt wait!!! I <333 Matt sooo much! makes my life sparkle soooo much!! He, being such a happy person, with an amazing smile is incredible! We have had alot of amazing times soo far and many more! <333 (:
Soooo...BEACH time!! i need a tan! haha The girlies and I are going for a night or two to ormond together! woot!!!
Well, i best get on my hw, American idol is on tonight!
With much love and laughter, LBB
The other day i got to thinking...Life. Its about the joy and happiness that occur during the moments you live. Laughing and smiling my way through life. Liveing and Loveing ever step, every breathe I take. Why be gloomy and sorrow when you can be happy and joyful. I love to laugh and smile as many know. I love seeing the same. A smile is worth a thousand words. I believe that statement to be incorrect. A smile is not worth a thousand words, a smile is more than words can describe. People in my life make me amazingly happy, its crazy. Why worry so much, stress, get mad, angry...when one can embrace life, live it to the fullest. Living life, Loving Life, Smiling, Happiness, and Laughing, its the way of life, and Im loving it.
I am a very happy person, I do have my times however when I'm upset, but that NEVER lasts long and it takes alot to upset me. I do get worried and nervous alot. Not good. or is it? School frustrates me up the ying yang. Grades havent been going the way i have planned...I kinda dug myself a deep hole and im scurrying trying to climb out but cant find a ledge of the hole to grab onto. what am i doing? i feel lost at times. But somehow, something good always comes out of it. I'm SO optimistic. I know i will succeed in the end. Whatever happens, i will succeed.
As a junior, I love what im doing and where im at. Im having fun and happy! I laugh all the time, cry alot from laughs. Through some tears, things pull together. I think i will look back on highschool knowing i had a blast with all my buddies...okay i guess i'll name most everyone...since i never do...Kstinas, Lauren, Brittany, Neil, Matt Robin <3! Matt tavera, Omar, ms glum, simon, talia, kirsti, carol, caroline, camille, jenn, katie, abby, amber, chessy, alexis..the list goes on... the girlies, besties, buddies, b/f!, friends, w/e be their title, I LOVE! You guys truely make me ohhh sooo happy! The laughs, tears, smiles, amazinggg times have, so far, been unforgettable. with a little over a year left of highschool, it will be even better, more amazingly fun happy times. I cant wait.
As i look into the future, graduation, college, carerr, marriage, kids...I cant wait. I cant wait to see what in store for me! college is a scary thing to think about. Will i get in? where? will i be good enough? rejected? scholorships? sat? ahhhhhhh!
Prom is coming up and I cantttttt wait!!! I <333 Matt sooo much! makes my life sparkle soooo much!! He, being such a happy person, with an amazing smile is incredible! We have had alot of amazing times soo far and many more! <333 (:
Soooo...BEACH time!! i need a tan! haha The girlies and I are going for a night or two to ormond together! woot!!!
Well, i best get on my hw, American idol is on tonight!
With much love and laughter, LBB
Thursday, February 19, 2009
REALLY????
can you believe it. I. ME. LAUREN. LAUREN BETHANY BROWN. I got written up today. WHAT???? all because of a note that i was writing during class. seriously? So Norona wrote me up. WTFFFF. so i went down to bevin, who read it and laughed, i mean, really, come on, im an AP student with a clear record, who is going to temper with my record now over such a measly thing. i was mad nontheless. clearly, any chance at leadership for next year had dwindled away.
So...contimplating the idea...do i go to a v-ball camp this summer and tryout for vball next year? idk yet...pondering on the idea.
Last weekend was amazingggggggggg with Matt!!!! The beach was sooooo much fun!! Roses are beautiful! (:
alrightyyyy h/w time guhhh
with much love and laughter, LB
So...contimplating the idea...do i go to a v-ball camp this summer and tryout for vball next year? idk yet...pondering on the idea.
Last weekend was amazingggggggggg with Matt!!!! The beach was sooooo much fun!! Roses are beautiful! (:
alrightyyyy h/w time guhhh
with much love and laughter, LB
Wednesday, February 11, 2009
happy!!!! (:
HEY!!! so today is the 11th of february!! 2/7 marks the day! ahhh he makes me smile sooo much! and i mean that when i say that. ahhh He is soooo sweet and cute it drives me crazy!!! I'm soooo glad we met! thanks neil! I cant wait for prom!!! i need to get a dresss!!! ahh mattttt im soo excited!! (: <3 (backwords smiley sideways heart!)
Sooo...alot of things have happened in the past few weeks! matt being one of them!!! (: but i also had solo and ensemble, in which i praticed the crappp out of the piece, soon to learn that i was playing it in the wrong key. long story short, i relearned the piece in the right key and ended up getting a superior on it!! WOOT! next year i will play a 5 so i can go to state!
Grades....yes, always a topic of discussion. I PASSED MY PHYSICS QUIZ!!! lol. i was sooo proud! haha. but then again...DOC WORTHMAN. omg. sooo i did the packet, and a friends forgot to do his so i let him copy mine... bad idea as i soon found out. yes, doc the mind reader found out and gave us both zeros. this is killlinggggg me. so embarrasing and its killing my grade. ahhhh.. :( not good. at least he didnt write me up though..i have a clean record and plan on keeping it that way! now i realllyyyy neeed to step it up and raise my grade...it will be a hard adventure...and im very nervous and concerned for my grade in that class, not to mention Doc prob hates me now. :(
On another note, my parents bdays were these past few days! haha, i thought it was sooo cute when my dad got my mommy flowers! awww!!! haha...
Nick is coming home today. maybe he will say hi this time and talk to me perhaps.
I got a membership at lifestyles!! so now im working out there, and i got a trainer who is gonna kick my assss! ahhhh. but i really need to work on it, loose some weight, gain some muscle, we all know the drill. lol
I cant wait for this saturday!! Beach on valentines with he cutie pie!! (:
welp, i best get on that psychology...lol. *sigh*
with much love and laughter, LBB
Sooo...alot of things have happened in the past few weeks! matt being one of them!!! (: but i also had solo and ensemble, in which i praticed the crappp out of the piece, soon to learn that i was playing it in the wrong key. long story short, i relearned the piece in the right key and ended up getting a superior on it!! WOOT! next year i will play a 5 so i can go to state!
Grades....yes, always a topic of discussion. I PASSED MY PHYSICS QUIZ!!! lol. i was sooo proud! haha. but then again...DOC WORTHMAN. omg. sooo i did the packet, and a friends forgot to do his so i let him copy mine... bad idea as i soon found out. yes, doc the mind reader found out and gave us both zeros. this is killlinggggg me. so embarrasing and its killing my grade. ahhhh.. :( not good. at least he didnt write me up though..i have a clean record and plan on keeping it that way! now i realllyyyy neeed to step it up and raise my grade...it will be a hard adventure...and im very nervous and concerned for my grade in that class, not to mention Doc prob hates me now. :(
On another note, my parents bdays were these past few days! haha, i thought it was sooo cute when my dad got my mommy flowers! awww!!! haha...
Nick is coming home today. maybe he will say hi this time and talk to me perhaps.
I got a membership at lifestyles!! so now im working out there, and i got a trainer who is gonna kick my assss! ahhhh. but i really need to work on it, loose some weight, gain some muscle, we all know the drill. lol
I cant wait for this saturday!! Beach on valentines with he cutie pie!! (:
welp, i best get on that psychology...lol. *sigh*
with much love and laughter, LBB
Monday, January 26, 2009
Smiling :D
These past few days I havent been able to stop smiling. I love talking with him, hes sooo nice, kind, cute, and has a great personality! I cant wait to hangout with him!!!
Neil=amazing. :)
report cards came in last week,...not good. i have alot of work to do, but i am VERY optimistic!
Have u ever just wanted to run wild, dance in the rain, swim naked? haha...well, u get the point, i love adventures! haha, lately i have been doing alot of biking, and i need to kayak once the weather warms up...wait, we are in FL, it is warm. haha
So, get this song...a few lyrics from Human by the Killers"
I did my best to noticewhen the call came down the lineup to the platform of surrenderI was brought but I was kindand sometimes I get nervouswhen I see an open door Close your eyes, clear your heartCut the cord are we human or are we dancermy sign is vital, my hands are cold and I´m on my knees looking for the answerare we human or are we dancer
love this song! kinda reminds me of myselfs in ways.
So, i believe things happen for a reason. they were ment to happen. maybe we learn from our mistakes and take that with us to the future for the better. but i do think that lately, things have been happening for a reason.
I'm really excited and looking forward to this next week!!! except for maybe my solo piece...which i hope goes well. but other than that, sunday will be great! and i cant wait till spring break! ;)
I've been going to the Y alot lately, so hopefully i can gain more muscle and lose some unneeded pounds so i can go to the beach and look HOTTT! ehhehe ;) well, at least make my self less self concious.
This is a really random blog. ;) I'm really happy right now!
I think people can change. i know i have changed since last year it seems in ways...yea physically (LOL) but mentally and emotionally as well. As for a certain someone, his actions may not be wise, yet somehow i still think he is a good person and can do right. until he finds himself and climbs himself out from that water well that he has seemed to fallen into, will things change. (2)
Valentines day is coming up! ;)
well, these are just a few thoughts running through my head! Someone is on my mind though! hehe :D good day today!
With much EXTRA Love and Laughter, LB
Neil=amazing. :)
report cards came in last week,...not good. i have alot of work to do, but i am VERY optimistic!
Have u ever just wanted to run wild, dance in the rain, swim naked? haha...well, u get the point, i love adventures! haha, lately i have been doing alot of biking, and i need to kayak once the weather warms up...wait, we are in FL, it is warm. haha
So, get this song...a few lyrics from Human by the Killers"
I did my best to noticewhen the call came down the lineup to the platform of surrenderI was brought but I was kindand sometimes I get nervouswhen I see an open door Close your eyes, clear your heartCut the cord are we human or are we dancermy sign is vital, my hands are cold and I´m on my knees looking for the answerare we human or are we dancer
love this song! kinda reminds me of myselfs in ways.
So, i believe things happen for a reason. they were ment to happen. maybe we learn from our mistakes and take that with us to the future for the better. but i do think that lately, things have been happening for a reason.
I'm really excited and looking forward to this next week!!! except for maybe my solo piece...which i hope goes well. but other than that, sunday will be great! and i cant wait till spring break! ;)
I've been going to the Y alot lately, so hopefully i can gain more muscle and lose some unneeded pounds so i can go to the beach and look HOTTT! ehhehe ;) well, at least make my self less self concious.
This is a really random blog. ;) I'm really happy right now!
I think people can change. i know i have changed since last year it seems in ways...yea physically (LOL) but mentally and emotionally as well. As for a certain someone, his actions may not be wise, yet somehow i still think he is a good person and can do right. until he finds himself and climbs himself out from that water well that he has seemed to fallen into, will things change. (2)
Valentines day is coming up! ;)
well, these are just a few thoughts running through my head! Someone is on my mind though! hehe :D good day today!
With much EXTRA Love and Laughter, LB
Tuesday, January 6, 2009
What happens in London stays in London.
HEYYYY!! so, i just came home a few days ago from London! I had an absolute blast, such a great experience. hmm...i guess i will start with day 1...
Day 1: We departed from a bus from LM to OIA flying out around 6... we were all excited!!! so we borded the plane, i sat next to matt and glenn, with norona in the seat in front of me.. lol. we flew during the night, i didnt get much sleep. the plane food was amazing! lol...
Day 2: arrival in greenwich airport around 7am. We all got on a bus that took us throw the outskirts of London and into Hamersmith, where we stayed at the Novotel. We quickely dropped our stuff off and bored the bus again to Windsor Castle. The architecture was beautiful. we went into St. Georges cathedral which was sooo pretty! London was freezing btw, but we had really good weather! (all pics on fb) after windsor we went back to the hotel for a bad dinner and to rest for the night.
Day 3: We went on a 4 hour tour through london, where we stopped at St. Pauls cathedral...i wish we had stayed there longer, it was an unbelievable site. as u can see, i really enjoyed the historic buildings and architecture...others in the group didnt seem to interested, but w/e, their loss. anyways, we also visitedt he london tower bridge and we saw the changing of the guards and buckingham palace. we ate at the original hard rock cafe. and we also saw big ben!
Day 4: We woke up nice and early and rode the eye of london! amazing sites from way up high! we continued on and visited the London tower. and it was here, that while my group was inside a cafe having coffee that i stepped outside with my chaperone to use the pottie, that when we came back we saw 3 british guards standing there. Now, the guards are not aloud to speak or move out of line, so i stood next to the guards while my chaperone was about to take a picture...but, the guard suddenly turned and gave me a huge hug for the pic!!!! he was soooo cute! and as i was walking away, the guard called back to me and he gave me a new years kiss!!!!! it was amazing. i was star struck. i got a british kiss.
Day 5: New Years Parade! It was amazing! sooo many people stand in the streets to watch and tape the various performers in the parade! i loved it! it was sooo cool! so many people cheering us on! amazing!!!! Later that night, i got ready for the New years party for all the highschoolers a the hotel! I looked hottt! lol. but really, i did. :) i headed over...and well...lets just say what happens in london stays in london. lol. hahah, nah, i wont give much detail on here, but i met some nice guys, and danced with a california boy i met, Derek, who was a zac effron look a like! we had alot of fun! and when 12am struck...welll, lets just say i got a new years kissies...tehehhe :D i must say, it was an absolute amazing night. I didnt have a worry on mind. No regrets whatsoever. i had a blast. ...idk, for once, like..ughh..this is odd for me to say this, but aksjdfhwer...ughh, i actually felt good about myself that night, like idk, i felt pretty. ugh, never mind, this is all too hard to put into words...
Day 6: We ventured 2 hours away to Stratford upon avon, also known as shakespeares birthplace. And i must say, this is one of two of my favorite places we visited. The town was soo cute, i loved the little shops, and we walked through shakespeares house and then to Trinity Church, where shakespeare is buried happily. This quote is layed upon shakespeares grave, it is said that he was suppose to be buried at westminister abbey.
i was slightly upset however that we didnt stay too long here in stratford. sooo many places to visit here, so much cream tea, which is famous there and little boutiques and such.
We continued in to Warwick castle.
Day 7: not sure i remember all too much about today.. ;/ but we did visit harrods at night, and matt bought a pair of adidas there. lol. ohh and we ate at garfunkels and had traditional fish and chips! it was soo tasty! and i had the best mocha cappuchino cream ever there! we ended up missing curfew that night...haha
Day 8: I woke up early to wish the "mayors of sexytown" farewell. Derek, shane and jeremy, miss u guys! we then visited westminister abbey, where many important people are buried included darwin! we then departed to my my other favorite place, Covent Gardens. I love it. The street performers were very cool, and the market was soo cute. i loved it, we ate at this italian pizza place where this cute italian made my pizza! then as we walked the market a french man made me a crepe with nutella and cream! love.... lol. then we ventured to the british museum, say the rosetta stone and didnt have much time here. we made our way back to the hotel to get ready and dressed up for the play Wicked! The play was soooo amazing! i loved it! the theatre was sooo cool! and the show was outstanding, and the live band was to perfection!
Day 9: early in the morning, around 2am, about 10 of us had planned to tape noronas door shut with duck tape, cause over the past week he had taped our doors to ensure we didnt sneak out...so myself, alex, chessy, alexis, sean, daneil, glenn, and others duck tapped his door. it was amazing, but he still hasnt said anything about it. lol. so after getting little sleep, i woke up around 5 and we set off on the plane home. this day, if i may, was HELL. I got soo incrediabley sick on the plane ride home. it was miserable. We arrived back around 7 and i had to get ready for school...i was sooo sick and tookk lots of medicine. ;)
the next day... school this day was helllll.. i felt and looked like crap. soo sick. and i still am. omg. this is bad. i feelll horrible...asdkjlfhwerioajsdfjasdf;j...and im in a bad mood. lol. but w/e
anyways, basically, i had an awesome adventure in london. I want to live there! i loved the cities beauty, the old historic places! if i ever go back though, which i do hope i do, i do wish that i go with a close group of friends or family, cause the band group was way too big, and therefore lots of time was wasted takeing role, and doing lots of waiting for slow people and irresponsible people. but i enjoyed the trip nonetheless.
now i gotta go attemt at some homework...see how that goes, im sick as a dog. omg. i feel sooa ijsdfkjweroasjdfk.
anyways, with much love and laughter, LB
Friday, December 26, 2008
2008 comes to a closer...
well hello there! its been waayy to0 long since i blogged! i dont know where to start! ...
well, for starters, christmas was yesterday! i must say, it was a great day! my aunt and uncle came over and yesterday morning, my aunt, uncle, sis, and set out on a longgg bike ride! and man, 20 miles worked my bootie! thehe, and we stopped at the usual place on the trail and fed the horses! we came home and talked and joked and laughed...the normal Brown Family favorites. then we ate ALOT...and drank...coke and water. ;) and pretty much had a jolly good time together as one big happy Brown Family! :) we decided this year presents were not necesary to a great christmas..however we all seem to break that rule. lol. i got a new projection alarm clock! yeah! and undies and a purse! woot! not to mention my trip to London coming up and my class ring! :D
while on that subject.... i leave for London on Sunday! I'm soooo excited! Setting out across sea to an unknown area of the world is sooo thrilling. It's going to be freezingg!!! and dang, i am not prepared for that, my warm floridian bootie in london. lmao. It will be amazingly fun nontheless, with the Bandos i love! ...and hot british men! :)
I got my SAT scores back a few days ago...not pretty. i was pretty upset at those damn results. i really thought i did better. no need to shed tears though over that, i will def be retaking that soon.
i washed and waxed my car today! it was soooo dirty! lol... inside and out! (backseat) lmao, thats for u BOOPER! lol! love u!
Things have been going pretty well these past few weeks! Family came over, great holiday break, going to London, MY COMPUTER IS FIXED(still in the process of downloading stuff), everybody is in good health, kasper is doing well, i decided to play waterpolo coming up soon, that is however, if i get the courage to wear the one piece and if it actually fits me. lol. but...2 things are missing. these 2 things are ALWAYS...ALWAYS on my mind. grades and another unmentionable problem.
Grades. Grades. Grades. this, so far, has not been a good year with grades. I really need to step it up. i have the end of this semester to trug through, then a new semester to begin with good grades hopefully. Ya know, this just crossed my mind...i am such an optimistic person, i actually think I'm going to do better next semester. wow, hold on, (sry, i think im talking to myself haha) i just challenged myself to do better...interesting...New years resolution? hmm...and the other item on mind...this is a hard one to talk about...well here goes...
I want a guy. A guy that will make me laugh. We would laugh together. A guy that smiles. A guy that is honest, respectful, and truthful. A guy that shares his emotions with me and i share mine. A guy that calls me, just to talk. A guy that will ride bikes with me and stop to share a smoothie. A guy thats adventurous. A guy that loves me. A guy that cares. A guy that holds my hand. A guy that dances with me in the pouring rain (and of course kiss me in the pouring rain!) A guy that loves my family and friends for who they are and i will love his. A guy who loves me for who i am. A guy thats with me through good times and bad. A guy that will stand by my side. A guy that will just sit with me and watch movies till we fall asleep. A guy that is crazy yet romantic. A guy that will plan a picnic or maybe even surprise me. A guy that will call me his girl. A guy that will love me. and not just any guy. This guy is out there. somewhere. Maybe we have met, maybe we will meet tommorow, maybe in college. I dont know. But I'm here waiting for you. :)
that took so much out of me you have no idea. so im sitting here tearing up. and i ask myself why? honestly, i dont know how to answer that. shouldnt i be concentrating on other things such as grades and what not? ...*sigh*...
now that thats all out of me... 2008 is coming to an end, 2009 is a few days away! I will be celebrating the new year in london! at a party! woot! 2009..so much to look forward to! but i wont forget 2008! through good and bad times...lets try to remember some things...i finished up ACL rehab! lol. failed my AP World test, finished school off fairly well, many parties to never forget! Summer in mexico was amazing. absolutely an unforgettable trip. junior year begins! powderpuff game! football games! hip surgery! band! vball! dances! parties! bonfires! ohhh my! there is sooo much more that happened! :)
have you ever given up something that was important to you? I've been contimplating this idea for awhile and i dont know what to do. Volleyball. I've played for six years and 2 years of club and absolutely love the sport. however, my downfall with the ACL surgery put me at a bad setback. i did come back and play this year, but it was really rough, no lie. I know i was rough, and it was hard on me. I gave up playing club season this year and im not sure whether to give up playing. Next year is senior year, i'd hate to quit before i graduate and not play my senior year. but then again, i'd have to go to camps this upcoming summer and try to gain some more strenght to play in the fall. I dont know. It kills me to think that i would "just not tryout". I love the sport. I dont know what to do damnit. asdfhaskdjwoirjasdf
anyways, this was really long...sry. lol. leaving for london in 64 hours! see ya'll later!
with much love and laughter. LB
well, for starters, christmas was yesterday! i must say, it was a great day! my aunt and uncle came over and yesterday morning, my aunt, uncle, sis, and set out on a longgg bike ride! and man, 20 miles worked my bootie! thehe, and we stopped at the usual place on the trail and fed the horses! we came home and talked and joked and laughed...the normal Brown Family favorites. then we ate ALOT...and drank...coke and water. ;) and pretty much had a jolly good time together as one big happy Brown Family! :) we decided this year presents were not necesary to a great christmas..however we all seem to break that rule. lol. i got a new projection alarm clock! yeah! and undies and a purse! woot! not to mention my trip to London coming up and my class ring! :D
while on that subject.... i leave for London on Sunday! I'm soooo excited! Setting out across sea to an unknown area of the world is sooo thrilling. It's going to be freezingg!!! and dang, i am not prepared for that, my warm floridian bootie in london. lmao. It will be amazingly fun nontheless, with the Bandos i love! ...and hot british men! :)
I got my SAT scores back a few days ago...not pretty. i was pretty upset at those damn results. i really thought i did better. no need to shed tears though over that, i will def be retaking that soon.
i washed and waxed my car today! it was soooo dirty! lol... inside and out! (backseat) lmao, thats for u BOOPER! lol! love u!
Things have been going pretty well these past few weeks! Family came over, great holiday break, going to London, MY COMPUTER IS FIXED(still in the process of downloading stuff), everybody is in good health, kasper is doing well, i decided to play waterpolo coming up soon, that is however, if i get the courage to wear the one piece and if it actually fits me. lol. but...2 things are missing. these 2 things are ALWAYS...ALWAYS on my mind. grades and another unmentionable problem.
Grades. Grades. Grades. this, so far, has not been a good year with grades. I really need to step it up. i have the end of this semester to trug through, then a new semester to begin with good grades hopefully. Ya know, this just crossed my mind...i am such an optimistic person, i actually think I'm going to do better next semester. wow, hold on, (sry, i think im talking to myself haha) i just challenged myself to do better...interesting...New years resolution? hmm...and the other item on mind...this is a hard one to talk about...well here goes...
I want a guy. A guy that will make me laugh. We would laugh together. A guy that smiles. A guy that is honest, respectful, and truthful. A guy that shares his emotions with me and i share mine. A guy that calls me, just to talk. A guy that will ride bikes with me and stop to share a smoothie. A guy thats adventurous. A guy that loves me. A guy that cares. A guy that holds my hand. A guy that dances with me in the pouring rain (and of course kiss me in the pouring rain!) A guy that loves my family and friends for who they are and i will love his. A guy who loves me for who i am. A guy thats with me through good times and bad. A guy that will stand by my side. A guy that will just sit with me and watch movies till we fall asleep. A guy that is crazy yet romantic. A guy that will plan a picnic or maybe even surprise me. A guy that will call me his girl. A guy that will love me. and not just any guy. This guy is out there. somewhere. Maybe we have met, maybe we will meet tommorow, maybe in college. I dont know. But I'm here waiting for you. :)
that took so much out of me you have no idea. so im sitting here tearing up. and i ask myself why? honestly, i dont know how to answer that. shouldnt i be concentrating on other things such as grades and what not? ...*sigh*...
now that thats all out of me... 2008 is coming to an end, 2009 is a few days away! I will be celebrating the new year in london! at a party! woot! 2009..so much to look forward to! but i wont forget 2008! through good and bad times...lets try to remember some things...i finished up ACL rehab! lol. failed my AP World test, finished school off fairly well, many parties to never forget! Summer in mexico was amazing. absolutely an unforgettable trip. junior year begins! powderpuff game! football games! hip surgery! band! vball! dances! parties! bonfires! ohhh my! there is sooo much more that happened! :)
have you ever given up something that was important to you? I've been contimplating this idea for awhile and i dont know what to do. Volleyball. I've played for six years and 2 years of club and absolutely love the sport. however, my downfall with the ACL surgery put me at a bad setback. i did come back and play this year, but it was really rough, no lie. I know i was rough, and it was hard on me. I gave up playing club season this year and im not sure whether to give up playing. Next year is senior year, i'd hate to quit before i graduate and not play my senior year. but then again, i'd have to go to camps this upcoming summer and try to gain some more strenght to play in the fall. I dont know. It kills me to think that i would "just not tryout". I love the sport. I dont know what to do damnit. asdfhaskdjwoirjasdf
anyways, this was really long...sry. lol. leaving for london in 64 hours! see ya'll later!
with much love and laughter. LB
Monday, December 1, 2008
seriously. seriously.
Now, were in like what the 21st century i think? lol. and we are surrounded by all this damn technology that washes our minds away in ciberspace and by little damn wires conected and a messy piece of .... sry for the anger, bit as you can see, MY COMPUTER CRASHED. and i lost everything f-ing thing saved on it and im soooooooooooooo pissed right now. so, im useing this old computer that sux ass. no joke. I dont have itunes, and use youtube till i download crap. facebook and myspace dont work. omg. im going to cry. seriously. this sux ass. something or someone or this damn computer is about to get punched or slammed into the tile. holy crap. so pissed.
Why cant we all just live like the cavemen did way back then. Life would be so much easier. (damn it, i cant type crap on this keyboard) But really, think about it...no technology, no troubles, no shit to deal with...just yourself, and a cave. how lovely would that be. Lauren and a cave. maybe some berries too. :) and perhaps nobody around. just me and myself and the cave. ..yea okay now im going crazy..
But seriously. this is ridicilous.
on another note...
randomly, as i was walking to lunch and to my locker today, i was walking and pretty much just thinking, as always...about Boopers book "Dateable". and i had some interesting thoughts come to mind...being that right now im pretty confused, but besides that deal, the point is, i remember somthing in the book stating that you wont stay together in highschool so why bother dating or something on that note... and why i feel some of that is false, alot of it is true. then again, i look at it like, im in highschool, should i not just be focusing on academics? well, i should me focused on academics, but im not. my mind drifts away frequently. and when yea think about it, everyone dreams about finding that man in there life, a mystery thats taking way to long to solve. Or in a guys veiwpoint, i guess he waiting for that woman to come along. or i mean, if ya swing differently than those two options than so be it, as long as ones happy in life i dont care who you love. but as we were discussing in psych today, "would u take the love or the money" Love is life. Live life loving happily. cant beat it. money wont cut it. yeah, in the long run, money is america, cant prosper w/o it, but Love, thats something that facinates me. When will it happen? is he out there? does he know me? do i know him? when will we meet? is he wondering the same things i am?
Life is all a mystery. Waiting to be unsolved as life unvails itself till death and beyond. Wonders of my mind flow curiously through the day, longing for the day i solve pieces and bits of this gigantic mystery. And the mystery isnt just "love". well, okay, most of it is...but what about career wise. What will i do? where will i go to college? what will i do in life? what will i pursue? where will i go? all these questions race through my mind daily as well as many other questions. when? where? why? what? how?
Life is a mystery. and im still yet to unsolve it. Honestly, i cant wait.for the future. im very optimistic. and while i should be concentrating on the present times, i can admit im not that focused. maybe i should change that up a bit. but for now, im 17, a junior in highschool. i cant wait to unsolve this mystery.
and while most are reading this, if anyone actually made it this far, lol, sry it may not have made all that much sense. hehe ;)
with much love and laughter, LB
Why cant we all just live like the cavemen did way back then. Life would be so much easier. (damn it, i cant type crap on this keyboard) But really, think about it...no technology, no troubles, no shit to deal with...just yourself, and a cave. how lovely would that be. Lauren and a cave. maybe some berries too. :) and perhaps nobody around. just me and myself and the cave. ..yea okay now im going crazy..
But seriously. this is ridicilous.
on another note...
randomly, as i was walking to lunch and to my locker today, i was walking and pretty much just thinking, as always...about Boopers book "Dateable". and i had some interesting thoughts come to mind...being that right now im pretty confused, but besides that deal, the point is, i remember somthing in the book stating that you wont stay together in highschool so why bother dating or something on that note... and why i feel some of that is false, alot of it is true. then again, i look at it like, im in highschool, should i not just be focusing on academics? well, i should me focused on academics, but im not. my mind drifts away frequently. and when yea think about it, everyone dreams about finding that man in there life, a mystery thats taking way to long to solve. Or in a guys veiwpoint, i guess he waiting for that woman to come along. or i mean, if ya swing differently than those two options than so be it, as long as ones happy in life i dont care who you love. but as we were discussing in psych today, "would u take the love or the money" Love is life. Live life loving happily. cant beat it. money wont cut it. yeah, in the long run, money is america, cant prosper w/o it, but Love, thats something that facinates me. When will it happen? is he out there? does he know me? do i know him? when will we meet? is he wondering the same things i am?
Life is all a mystery. Waiting to be unsolved as life unvails itself till death and beyond. Wonders of my mind flow curiously through the day, longing for the day i solve pieces and bits of this gigantic mystery. And the mystery isnt just "love". well, okay, most of it is...but what about career wise. What will i do? where will i go to college? what will i do in life? what will i pursue? where will i go? all these questions race through my mind daily as well as many other questions. when? where? why? what? how?
Life is a mystery. and im still yet to unsolve it. Honestly, i cant wait.for the future. im very optimistic. and while i should be concentrating on the present times, i can admit im not that focused. maybe i should change that up a bit. but for now, im 17, a junior in highschool. i cant wait to unsolve this mystery.
and while most are reading this, if anyone actually made it this far, lol, sry it may not have made all that much sense. hehe ;)
with much love and laughter, LB
Saturday, November 22, 2008
Have you ever seen such a beautiful night?
Have you ever seen such a beautiful night?
...sitting on the dock, watching the sun set, thinking of way too many things on my mind, and pouring out tears. nothing could have been better honestly. So many things race through my mind, and i feel like i have no idea what to think. I guess these are those obstacles in life that i must tackle. as Henry Ford once said, "obstacles are those frightful things you see when you take your eyes off the good". hmmm...
Sitting there wondering and thinking all dazed and confused. Why does life have to be so confusing? I guess it doesnt, I just make it that way. haha.
This year has definetly been different. One of new experiances, good, bad, and some that i will hopefully learn from. But then again, the year is not over yet. Regrets?i have none. mistakes? many. fun times? too many to count.
And then my head starts to spin about everything that has been going on lately...and im so lost. first of all, the cell bill has not come....which is odd, maybe this is for the good, i have no idea. Grades, some have gone up, which is great, but 1 grade still lingers WAY below where it needs to be, i should work on that...and lastly...im really lost on this one. 1,2,3,4,5,6. haha, i love how only one person knows what im talking about ;). and i dont think i should really discuss this on here, seems i think about it all way toooo much anyways and i will prob just end up getting even more lost in my thoughts.
well, i had yet my 5th surgery on friday, a minor one, yet still included in the counting. lol. and im really curious to find out some results...i had what the doc thought was a piece of looses cartilage floating around in my hip after a fall, but turns out, after they took that piece out on friday, that the doc was unsure as to what it was. hmm...so it got sent off to the lab for testing...interesting. and right now, im sitting here in my undies. lmao. i cant figure out to wear pants comfortably without it hurting. lmao. ohhhh and i had the HOTTEST anethiaiologist. WHOA! hehehe...oh and talk about odd, i walk into the pre op room and this little asian nurse lady comes in and says, "alright, strip down and put this gown on. " WTF? lmao. they had me strip down in that freezing hospital. lmao. im sure that anethiaiologist got a view while i was in surgery... HAHAHHA..okay, i'll just stop there. lmao. what an experiance.
Powderpuff game was last Wednesday! and it was great! the girls and i made shirts, and they wre sooo preeetty! hehe, Kristina, Booper, Lauren, Kirsti, Tova, and Niki! and during the game, it was cold as asdf;oiasrjuosidfjsdf!!! haha, but we continued on playing...in disarray. haha. but nontheless, i had a tackle! aka i pulled a flag! hehe and got my name announced! WOOT! hehe. it was all fun though! i cant wait till senior year when we win! :)
well, im off to the movies with the chicas! :)
with much love and laughter, LB
...sitting on the dock, watching the sun set, thinking of way too many things on my mind, and pouring out tears. nothing could have been better honestly. So many things race through my mind, and i feel like i have no idea what to think. I guess these are those obstacles in life that i must tackle. as Henry Ford once said, "obstacles are those frightful things you see when you take your eyes off the good". hmmm...
Sitting there wondering and thinking all dazed and confused. Why does life have to be so confusing? I guess it doesnt, I just make it that way. haha.
This year has definetly been different. One of new experiances, good, bad, and some that i will hopefully learn from. But then again, the year is not over yet. Regrets?i have none. mistakes? many. fun times? too many to count.
And then my head starts to spin about everything that has been going on lately...and im so lost. first of all, the cell bill has not come....which is odd, maybe this is for the good, i have no idea. Grades, some have gone up, which is great, but 1 grade still lingers WAY below where it needs to be, i should work on that...and lastly...im really lost on this one. 1,2,3,4,5,6. haha, i love how only one person knows what im talking about ;). and i dont think i should really discuss this on here, seems i think about it all way toooo much anyways and i will prob just end up getting even more lost in my thoughts.
well, i had yet my 5th surgery on friday, a minor one, yet still included in the counting. lol. and im really curious to find out some results...i had what the doc thought was a piece of looses cartilage floating around in my hip after a fall, but turns out, after they took that piece out on friday, that the doc was unsure as to what it was. hmm...so it got sent off to the lab for testing...interesting. and right now, im sitting here in my undies. lmao. i cant figure out to wear pants comfortably without it hurting. lmao. ohhhh and i had the HOTTEST anethiaiologist. WHOA! hehehe...oh and talk about odd, i walk into the pre op room and this little asian nurse lady comes in and says, "alright, strip down and put this gown on. " WTF? lmao. they had me strip down in that freezing hospital. lmao. im sure that anethiaiologist got a view while i was in surgery... HAHAHHA..okay, i'll just stop there. lmao. what an experiance.
Powderpuff game was last Wednesday! and it was great! the girls and i made shirts, and they wre sooo preeetty! hehe, Kristina, Booper, Lauren, Kirsti, Tova, and Niki! and during the game, it was cold as asdf;oiasrjuosidfjsdf!!! haha, but we continued on playing...in disarray. haha. but nontheless, i had a tackle! aka i pulled a flag! hehe and got my name announced! WOOT! hehe. it was all fun though! i cant wait till senior year when we win! :)
well, im off to the movies with the chicas! :)
with much love and laughter, LB
Tuesday, November 18, 2008
Where do i stand?
So, today, in Doc's class, he got off topic yet again, rambling on about his stories and such which i find interesting. But then Doc began discussing IQ, which is what were studying. He was talking about how having an IQ doesnt neccesarily mean your smart, being gifted doesnt mean your smart. Surprisingly i began to listen, knowing that im not the smartest ever. But Doc continued on discussing how everyone has that somthing they're good at. Not everyone will become that docotr or that dentst or lawyer that some dream of. IQ is rather a test of knowlege of vocab and patterns and such...or something like that. haha. But then Doc asked us, "what do u feel you are good at?" and some said, "I'm good at athletics, I'm good at math" and i sat there thinking...well, i dont know what im good at, some stated how they felt while i sat quietly thinking. When will i find out? Doc also brought up some interesting points after someone stated, "but a high IQ, high SAT scores and GPA will get one into a college with a doctors career." and Doc, once again, told us more stories about how a girl he taught didnt have the best grades, but went on to attend a local college and soon became a spokeperson for the magic team, pursueing her dreams of public speaking and such..i personally find that interesting...and led me to continue thinking of myself and where i stand in life. What will i purue? What is that thing im good at? ...then reality hit me, my grades need to be better. no matter what i chose to do in life, it seems highschool grades will always reflect that. Now im sitting here, thinking, then not thinking, trying to clear my mind of different thoughts.
Where do i stand?
I dont know. honestly. I dont know what im doing. I feel so lost. I've never had this feeling. This year has been one of ups and downs and many low times. So many things race through my head as im lost within my own thoughts. Maybe i will learn from all this? maybe next year (SENIOR) will be better. but then again, "the time is now, let this be the time". but its not.
Digiorgio told me today, "I always see a smile on your face!" then she continued to ask me after class, "what do u want to pursue career wise" ...i stood there thinking, not sure what to say and finally, said. "well, maybe a lawyer or something in the field of criminal justice or criminology, its always interested me" and she said, "I would have never expected to hear that from someone thats always so happy." I almost bawled right then, but continued to compose myself as i always do with a smile. digiorgio said i needed to get a job that was happy, a happy job, something fun and energetic like me. and honestly, i like what she said, not to say criminology and law are dull or w/e, they're interesting, but who knows, somthings out there for me and i cant wait to see what the future holds.
and today i went back to the doc for results on my mri for my hip. and well, nothing too serious, but the doc's gonna make an incision and take out a piece of chipped cartilage thats floating around, and she said theres tissue damage but that'll be fine. yeah. so going back under the knife for a minor surgery. eh. w/e.
powderpuff game tommorow! our shirts look HOT! the game will prob be dumb though.. lol. but w/e, its all for the fun of it! haha.
welp, imma go finish stuff up, this was a really long blog..haha...
with love and laughter, LB
Where do i stand?
I dont know. honestly. I dont know what im doing. I feel so lost. I've never had this feeling. This year has been one of ups and downs and many low times. So many things race through my head as im lost within my own thoughts. Maybe i will learn from all this? maybe next year (SENIOR) will be better. but then again, "the time is now, let this be the time". but its not.
Digiorgio told me today, "I always see a smile on your face!" then she continued to ask me after class, "what do u want to pursue career wise" ...i stood there thinking, not sure what to say and finally, said. "well, maybe a lawyer or something in the field of criminal justice or criminology, its always interested me" and she said, "I would have never expected to hear that from someone thats always so happy." I almost bawled right then, but continued to compose myself as i always do with a smile. digiorgio said i needed to get a job that was happy, a happy job, something fun and energetic like me. and honestly, i like what she said, not to say criminology and law are dull or w/e, they're interesting, but who knows, somthings out there for me and i cant wait to see what the future holds.
and today i went back to the doc for results on my mri for my hip. and well, nothing too serious, but the doc's gonna make an incision and take out a piece of chipped cartilage thats floating around, and she said theres tissue damage but that'll be fine. yeah. so going back under the knife for a minor surgery. eh. w/e.
powderpuff game tommorow! our shirts look HOT! the game will prob be dumb though.. lol. but w/e, its all for the fun of it! haha.
welp, imma go finish stuff up, this was a really long blog..haha...
with love and laughter, LB
Saturday, November 8, 2008
"We all need somebody to lean on"
This week has been one of ups and downs and all arounds. Where to start...so much to talk about...
School: well, friday i had an american test and i did pretty darn well on that thang. haha, and physics...thats a whole other story. lol. but, once again, grades need to go up, i actually feel like i was productive today, i did alot of english homword. yeah. lol.
Band: huummm...well, the last game is friday! its senior night! one more week till marching is over, im sure many people are breathing a sigh of relief. I've had this somthing on my mind, I've talked to a few people about it, but im still not sure...i have time to think, but im considering trying out for DM next year. Questions race through my mind however, will i be able to handle it? Will i be respected by not only peers but norona? Face my fears and go for it? Do i have what it takes? Some think im all jokes and laughs..be ready to be proved wrong. Im still contemplating the idea...i mean, that would mean giving up vball, which i may very well do anyways due to other reasonings...and while on this subject..should i play next year? or no? im leaning in both directions and dont know where to fall! I love the sport, but damn, the knee thing, and now the unknown screwed up hip, its all building up to..do i wanna continue this? I dont know honestly what i want to do right now, i have time.
so, for english i have to model this poem "I hear America Singing" so knowing myself, i think more than i should... "I feel America Thinking"
now, its subject to change, cause some things dont make sense, i know, i will fix it up, but for now, here goes...
I feel America thinking, the different thoughts that I feel,
Those of inquisitiveness, each one thinking hers as it should be overbearing and significant,
The child thinking hers as she learns right or wrong
The student thinking hers as she completes her homework, or takes a test,
The parent thinking what joy comes from her child, the father thinking about the future of his child,
The teacher thinking as she grades papers, the doctor thinking as she performs surgery,
The boyfriend’s thoughts, she will enjoy the evening, or the flowers or the kiss,
The thoughtful thinking of the sister, or the brother in college, or of the dog walking or eating,
Each thinking what happens today or tomorrow but not in the past,
The minds that wander to dreams- the real life that forms into envying fairytales, earning, happily,Thinking with positive minds their momentous influential thoughts.
With much Love and Laughter, LB
School: well, friday i had an american test and i did pretty darn well on that thang. haha, and physics...thats a whole other story. lol. but, once again, grades need to go up, i actually feel like i was productive today, i did alot of english homword. yeah. lol.
Band: huummm...well, the last game is friday! its senior night! one more week till marching is over, im sure many people are breathing a sigh of relief. I've had this somthing on my mind, I've talked to a few people about it, but im still not sure...i have time to think, but im considering trying out for DM next year. Questions race through my mind however, will i be able to handle it? Will i be respected by not only peers but norona? Face my fears and go for it? Do i have what it takes? Some think im all jokes and laughs..be ready to be proved wrong. Im still contemplating the idea...i mean, that would mean giving up vball, which i may very well do anyways due to other reasonings...and while on this subject..should i play next year? or no? im leaning in both directions and dont know where to fall! I love the sport, but damn, the knee thing, and now the unknown screwed up hip, its all building up to..do i wanna continue this? I dont know honestly what i want to do right now, i have time.
so, for english i have to model this poem "I hear America Singing" so knowing myself, i think more than i should... "I feel America Thinking"
now, its subject to change, cause some things dont make sense, i know, i will fix it up, but for now, here goes...
I feel America thinking, the different thoughts that I feel,
Those of inquisitiveness, each one thinking hers as it should be overbearing and significant,
The child thinking hers as she learns right or wrong
The student thinking hers as she completes her homework, or takes a test,
The parent thinking what joy comes from her child, the father thinking about the future of his child,
The teacher thinking as she grades papers, the doctor thinking as she performs surgery,
The boyfriend’s thoughts, she will enjoy the evening, or the flowers or the kiss,
The thoughtful thinking of the sister, or the brother in college, or of the dog walking or eating,
Each thinking what happens today or tomorrow but not in the past,
The minds that wander to dreams- the real life that forms into envying fairytales, earning, happily,Thinking with positive minds their momentous influential thoughts.
With much Love and Laughter, LB
Sunday, November 2, 2008
worried...
So, im pretty scared and worried right now...i have this fear right now...very weird. But honestly, i couldnt even sleep last night. not good. 2 main reasons why, plus a few minor situations. the 2 major situations: Showing my parents my disgraceful report card that ive been hiding...and the other reason is my messed up hip. 2 weeks ago i hit the floor for vball and it my hip sweeled and bruised and i didnt think much of it...but now i thought i had healed but i look at it and its bulging and like there is this piece floating around in my hip..and my mom saw it yesterday and freaked, and my dad was pissed that i hadnt said anything before. Its not that painful, i mean i cant like sleep on my side cause it hurts but its really not that bad, but it looks nasty in comparison to my other hip. damn, what to do, im soo scared, my parents want to take me to get xrays, but i dont want to. I mean, i do, so i can fix whatevers wrong with it, hopefully very minor, but then again, im scared. I dont want to go and get some news like i got for my knee. I bawled all night when i found out that i was going to have major knee reconstruction surgery and be in rehab for nearly a year and have to sit out of vball and marching for a year. it hurt emotionally and physically. I dont want to have to have anything like that again. UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. i guess i will just have to see what happens.
On another note, we had FBA yesterday. Lake Mary performed well, probably the best performance yet. But i guess it just wasnt good enough, we got an excellent. But we should be proud, i mean look at all the improvments that were made, a huge difference since county festival.
Well, i have a crap load of homework to do, and some thinking about what to do about my report card. :( and i need to bring my grades up.
With much love and Laughter, LB
On another note, we had FBA yesterday. Lake Mary performed well, probably the best performance yet. But i guess it just wasnt good enough, we got an excellent. But we should be proud, i mean look at all the improvments that were made, a huge difference since county festival.
Well, i have a crap load of homework to do, and some thinking about what to do about my report card. :( and i need to bring my grades up.
With much love and Laughter, LB
Wednesday, October 29, 2008
the sun is setting...
As the sun sets, it seems i should be going on a run, as usual...opps. So, Neil advised me to write a new blog :) haha.
I must be honest, for as stressed out, with such mixed emotions that ive been having this past while...it seems this past week has been pretty chill. I mean, of course i still have school to freak out about, and grades (that need to fly up to my expectations) and other stuff ;) haha. but volleyball has come to a harsh ending... and band will be over shortly, so i have alot more time. and im liking it, i have more time to think and do homework and go workout. not to mention the weather is nice out lately, bit chilly though. lol. i guess i cant sleep naked anymore...lmao. unless someone wants to come over and keep me warm? hahah...okay, now im getting myself off subject. lol.
So, lately, i feel bad, ive been at band and vball so i havent spent much time at home with my parent ya know, so hopefully that will change soon...i have more time, therefore i can actually sit down and eat dinner with them. ...and then go hide in my room. lol. no but really, with Becca away for a long time, i miss her!! i know shes doing well though! and Nick's been gone for awhile now! miss u too bro! but i know they are where they want to be and are succeeding at what they dream of pursueing. I look up to them for that, and inspire to do the same, chase after my dreams and pursueing them. But right now, im confused about that...i dont know my dream. I dont know what i want to pursue. Of course im going to go to college, but i mean i dont know about majors, or careers. Seems like the pressure is on to decide, and decide wisely. SAT/ACT are coming up and important, considering i need to do well on them in order to make up for my GPA. But knowing my computer skills, im actually having trouble registering to take the tests. lol. i will figure it out. But, i guess i do know that whatever i do major/career/pursue will have nothing to do with mathamatics and computers/technology. hahhaha.
Volleyball has come to a bittersweet end. I love the sport, i love playing, im expremely happy/proud to say i came back and played/tried. I know i was "rusty" though. i didnt play for 12 months before tryouts, i should have guessed i would not have the same skill that i had my freshman year. but thats alright, i dont think i will be doing club volleybal. its a hard choice, stab in the heart really. I love playing, but i know it wont get me anywhere(college wise), therefore the money aspect would be a big burdon. I hope to go to some camps and play pick-up vball though in the mean time.
Wow, i just noticed, this is random, but then again, alot that i write is random...anyways..my hair got longer! lol. it used to be short. hhaa....cut it or grow it out longer?
Well, i best go finish math h.w to prepare myself for a quiz tommorow...
with much love and laughter, LB
I must be honest, for as stressed out, with such mixed emotions that ive been having this past while...it seems this past week has been pretty chill. I mean, of course i still have school to freak out about, and grades (that need to fly up to my expectations) and other stuff ;) haha. but volleyball has come to a harsh ending... and band will be over shortly, so i have alot more time. and im liking it, i have more time to think and do homework and go workout. not to mention the weather is nice out lately, bit chilly though. lol. i guess i cant sleep naked anymore...lmao. unless someone wants to come over and keep me warm? hahah...okay, now im getting myself off subject. lol.
So, lately, i feel bad, ive been at band and vball so i havent spent much time at home with my parent ya know, so hopefully that will change soon...i have more time, therefore i can actually sit down and eat dinner with them. ...and then go hide in my room. lol. no but really, with Becca away for a long time, i miss her!! i know shes doing well though! and Nick's been gone for awhile now! miss u too bro! but i know they are where they want to be and are succeeding at what they dream of pursueing. I look up to them for that, and inspire to do the same, chase after my dreams and pursueing them. But right now, im confused about that...i dont know my dream. I dont know what i want to pursue. Of course im going to go to college, but i mean i dont know about majors, or careers. Seems like the pressure is on to decide, and decide wisely. SAT/ACT are coming up and important, considering i need to do well on them in order to make up for my GPA. But knowing my computer skills, im actually having trouble registering to take the tests. lol. i will figure it out. But, i guess i do know that whatever i do major/career/pursue will have nothing to do with mathamatics and computers/technology. hahhaha.
Volleyball has come to a bittersweet end. I love the sport, i love playing, im expremely happy/proud to say i came back and played/tried. I know i was "rusty" though. i didnt play for 12 months before tryouts, i should have guessed i would not have the same skill that i had my freshman year. but thats alright, i dont think i will be doing club volleybal. its a hard choice, stab in the heart really. I love playing, but i know it wont get me anywhere(college wise), therefore the money aspect would be a big burdon. I hope to go to some camps and play pick-up vball though in the mean time.
Wow, i just noticed, this is random, but then again, alot that i write is random...anyways..my hair got longer! lol. it used to be short. hhaa....cut it or grow it out longer?
Well, i best go finish math h.w to prepare myself for a quiz tommorow...
with much love and laughter, LB
Wednesday, October 22, 2008
I never thought.
I never thought i'd be in such situations now.
I never thought it'd be so hard.
I never thought I'd struggle so much physically and emotionally.
I never thought I'd pull myself down.
But then again,
I never thought I learn so much about myself through this process.
I guess thats what lifes all about, and honestly, as much as i hate it, i love it.
As much as i "never thought", i have always known myself to never give up. never stop trying. When i fail 100000 times, i know i tried. and the more i try the more i will succeed, Its not over. Its just the beginning, and im living it and loving it.
PS: i do realize that alot of what i post is thoughts that many probably dont understand. but honestly, thats alright, if u read this and dont understand, just know, its Lauren thinking again...lol
With much love and laughter, Lauren
I never thought it'd be so hard.
I never thought I'd struggle so much physically and emotionally.
I never thought I'd pull myself down.
But then again,
I never thought I learn so much about myself through this process.
I guess thats what lifes all about, and honestly, as much as i hate it, i love it.
As much as i "never thought", i have always known myself to never give up. never stop trying. When i fail 100000 times, i know i tried. and the more i try the more i will succeed, Its not over. Its just the beginning, and im living it and loving it.
PS: i do realize that alot of what i post is thoughts that many probably dont understand. but honestly, thats alright, if u read this and dont understand, just know, its Lauren thinking again...lol
With much love and laughter, Lauren
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