how to start off such a blog? ...

Wow, i cant believe im actually starting a blog site now. Seems like I should have started one years ago. Thanks Booper, Lauren, Kristina, and Neil, you all influenced me. :D. But, honestly im really glad im starting this. I stink at writing, so dont expect much, but I liek the fact of writing about anything and everything on here. Most people that dont really know me, see me as the smile, all happy person all the time, which i am, but theres more than all happy and smiles. Those who are my close friends know that i think way too much about various things yet dont like to share what im really thinking. I thought writing in this blog would be easier, but its still hard to write whats really going on. I guess im a personal person, i dont like showing a different emotion other that happiness and smiles.Yet, im always nervous or worried. I never rarely cry in front of people or get mad. Thats all kept inside me ready to explode out of me at night when im deep in thought, or in other cases, now.

I choose my url "LivingLaughingLoveingLifeLauren" for one sole reason... I love living my life laughing as myself, Lauren. I love to laugh. Obviousely. haha. Maybe thats why im always happy on the outside, i find no reason to mope around when i have life full of adventures for me ahead. I cant say my smile is a curtain to the true me though. What I share and laugh about is what i love. What i keep inside of me is what seems "nonseclator". This is what im here for, maybe it'll be easier for me to let loose all thats inside of me.

Now the question: What's there to keep inside?
well...alot actually.

• Friends: There always there for me. You all have no idea what you mean to me. I love hanging out with you all, talking, movies, walks, swims, we have way too much fun. But then, i always see you all as the best friends to talk to. Kristina, you've been there for me since middle school. You dont realize this, but last summer, when i had my surgery, your the one that came to me to cheer me up, your the one that came over just to visit when i was sick as all hell. your the one that motivates me to do well in school. I look up to you, (even though im older, lol) We have soo many good times and more to come, I love u baby! (shes hates when i call her that, lol) hahahhaha...BOOPER and Lauren!!! I met u both this year, not thinking i would make any more friends in highschool honestly, seemed soo clicky in highschool. but u guys are the awesome. We have soo many fun times, Miya girls!! HAHA, and Booper, ur blog inspired me to do my own. Jeezzz, I have soo many great friends, that i could write out novels about them all. i love u all and u all know who u are.
• Family: You are my world. We are such a family. The love and support is the greatest thing i could ever ask for. But we have our misunderstandings. MAMA AND PAPA!!! haha, you both have soo much love and support, what more to say, alot actually, i just cant type it all. :p Becca and nick! you guys are my lovely siblings. We each are different yet soo simliar. we have our times of good and ugly, yet still happen to love. Your both leaving me this weekend for college, and i couldnt be happier and sader at the same time. I hate seeing u both go, yet im soo happy for you both are setting foot on a path of success. and Kasper of course, i love u boy! u listen to what i say w/o having to say anything back. ur a great listener. :D
• i could go on and on about all the stuff thats on my mind...
• School
• Stress
• Band
• Volleyball
• Guys...hehehe, cant really share this one on here, lol
• Life
• AP
• junior year
• Time
• driving
• College
• Issues
• Sunsets
• more...

School starts in 1 day!!! Im a big bad junior and excited yet nervous at the same time!!! There will be alot to think about then..lol. but i know it will be such a great year! :D

Well, I think i've blabbed on enough here about whats really on my mind right now. Its actually felt slightly good to get some things out, yet of course im still uptight, but that will hopefully lesson. Most of this probably didnt make too much sense, but it did to me so oh well. haha.

With Much Love and Laughter,

Lauren <3