:)

The end of school is nearing. Summer is approaching. Yipppeeee!!! I thought the school year would never end....wait it hasnt yet. haha. hopefully i can make the best of my junior year in the next week or so...bringing some grades up possibly. =/ So this summer... im SO EXCITED! Sun, beach, kayak, swim, online school =/, job hopefully, besties, girles, matt, parties, food, movies....i cant wait!

As highschool progresses, it seems it just keeps getting better and better (grades being the exception =/) this year has been fun with the girlies! and this summer will be even better! Matt makes me sooo happy! Im so glad to have him in my life. Next year i will be a senior! woop woop! much fun!

So hopefully i get a job this summer! i need to get a laptop! and save for college! :)

I think i just realized today how much i truly hate being home for hours at a time with nothing to do. just sitting here makes me so ansty. MUST GO OUT. :p

I also realized something else...people change. for the good and bad. why must kids our age turn to drinking and smoking? a drink here or there i deal with. but excessivly drinking and smoking is an absolute no no... really? why? i'll answer that question...they drink and smoke because they are possibly insecure about themselves or their current lives. Maybe they are mad or sad and looking for a way out and relieving themselves in such ways. maybe they are a little too happy and get carried away. maybe they are pressured into it. or maybe doing it willingly just for the hell of it. Of course ive had a drink or two, but never smoked. i dont see why. if ur hurt in any way, or any of the reasons or others that i listed, why not turn to something else. i dont really understand why someone would hurt themselves in such ways even though they know exactly what they are getting themselves into. One doesnt need to booze and smokeing to be happy. Why not be happy with the ones you love w/o being intoxicated or high.

Im actually really happy where im at now. i have my family, besties, girlies, matt, kasper and just living life. School is school. grades do matter, however, i dont know if this is a bad thing or not...but i am seemingly starting to ...idk the word for it...maybe care less? drift away from sucha drive? idk. of course i am still trying and such, dont get me wrong about that, but right now, everything just seems to be going well.

that prob made no sense to anyone. lol. my own thoughts though. haha

Congrats to those graduates of 09! Neil, Matt, Amber, Shelby, Kim...other seniors as well! You've worked are and now venture off to college! best of luck to you!
I cant wait to graduate! haha ;)

As i look back, i wish prom would come again. haha. it was an amazing night. but then again, i know there will be more amazing nights ahead of me. :)

Now i leave you with this quote...as we all take our own paths, good or bad, as Gandalf said, we must keep our feet, or there is no telling where we might get swept off to. I <3 LOTR.

"He used often to say there was only one Road; that it was like a great river: it's springs were at every doorstep and every path was it's tributary. "It's a dangerous business, Frodo, going out of your door," he used to say. "You step into the Road, and if you don't keep your feet, there is no telling where you might be swept off to.""

With much love and laughter, LBB

AMAZING

Prom was last night! can you believe it??! PROM! its like every little girls dream! And honestly, it feels like a dream! I had such an amazing time! I love getting dressed up! I felt like a princess! hehe (: not to mention, Matt looked very handsome and cute! We had such a great time! ahh! dinner wasnt good but w/e, dancing and such and just being with him was more than i could ask for. The limo ride was cool too! most everyone looked stunning! ahhh I wish time could turn around sometimes and replay the times we love the most. have u ever had that moment, when everything just hits you all at once and realize this is happening, this is real. I'm so happy right nowww! Matt makes my world spin! When we were slow dancing, it hit me. <333! Just idk how to put it into words, an amazing feeling of just being with him, being at prom, looking pretty, it was all just amazing. Looking at pictures earlier today with my mom bought tears to my eyes. shh! hehe. I felt soo pretty! The pictures just looked so pretty! Matt and I looked HOT! hehe my mom was like "why are u crying?" lol. and i said, "i'm just happy" :) LG looked sooo pretty! Her and alex looked amazing together! I cant wait till next year, all the miyas together all dressed up! (: and we'll be seniors!

grades grades grades. fml.

AP and final exams are coming up. oyy. but staying positive. hope for the best.

Summer is coming! and summer school ugh =/ but summer will be fun! i cant wait!

Well, i best be going, with much love and laughter, LBB

It's like a fairytale coming alive

Last night, driving home, so happy, smiling, singing, staring up into the night sky at the glowing moon. Incredible. I dont even know how to explain. I'm so happy! This Spring Break has truly been absolutely amazing! and its not over yet! :o! Beach with the girlies was sooo much fun! movies, springs, bikes, kayaks, washing cars lol, and spending amazinggg times with matt! Last night it kinda hit. Like, idkkkk how to explain the feeling! I'm soo happy with everthing right now (excluding grades). So, as I sit here now, doing my research paper, I think, "damn, can i just stay 17 for a bit longer!" haha but then again, i look forward to the future soo much! Wondering what will happen, where will i go, when, how, what, why! :p

School in 2 days. DAMN IT! lol. but really. SB has been so amazing i dont want to go back to school. Well, i guess push through the rest of the school year and thennnn SUMMER!!! :D Prom is coming up!!!!! CANT WAIT!!! Matt and I will be HOTTIES! :)

Soooo...yes. this is a short post. I just had to get some smiles out! :D hehe why stress? why worry? smile and enjoy life! :D

With much LOVE and LAUGHTER, LBB :)

soooo....

I havent blogged in awhile, upsetting I know. =( but..lets see where to startttt... Today, this is really random, but my mom was just talking to me and she said, "Lauren, when you get a bit older and have little babies i want to tell you, make sure you send them to swim lessons at a young age, there are too many deaths related to young ones drowning" it was interesting to hear he say, I've always been very alert to such cases. Reading the newspaper every morning has swormed me with news. I hate and feel such anger when i read a story such as the caylee anthony story, trenton ducket, or ramsey. They are such horror stories. How and why could a mother or father do such a thing to such a beautiful child with such a life ahead of them. Anyone would have taken them in if the parents didnt want them. It disgusts me. okay. enough said before I get upset.

The other day i got to thinking...Life. Its about the joy and happiness that occur during the moments you live. Laughing and smiling my way through life. Liveing and Loveing ever step, every breathe I take. Why be gloomy and sorrow when you can be happy and joyful. I love to laugh and smile as many know. I love seeing the same. A smile is worth a thousand words. I believe that statement to be incorrect. A smile is not worth a thousand words, a smile is more than words can describe. People in my life make me amazingly happy, its crazy. Why worry so much, stress, get mad, angry...when one can embrace life, live it to the fullest. Living life, Loving Life, Smiling, Happiness, and Laughing, its the way of life, and Im loving it.

I am a very happy person, I do have my times however when I'm upset, but that NEVER lasts long and it takes alot to upset me. I do get worried and nervous alot. Not good. or is it? School frustrates me up the ying yang. Grades havent been going the way i have planned...I kinda dug myself a deep hole and im scurrying trying to climb out but cant find a ledge of the hole to grab onto. what am i doing? i feel lost at times. But somehow, something good always comes out of it. I'm SO optimistic. I know i will succeed in the end. Whatever happens, i will succeed.

As a junior, I love what im doing and where im at. Im having fun and happy! I laugh all the time, cry alot from laughs. Through some tears, things pull together. I think i will look back on highschool knowing i had a blast with all my buddies...okay i guess i'll name most everyone...since i never do...Kstinas, Lauren, Brittany, Neil, Matt Robin <3! Matt tavera, Omar, ms glum, simon, talia, kirsti, carol, caroline, camille, jenn, katie, abby, amber, chessy, alexis..the list goes on... the girlies, besties, buddies, b/f!, friends, w/e be their title, I LOVE! You guys truely make me ohhh sooo happy! The laughs, tears, smiles, amazinggg times have, so far, been unforgettable. with a little over a year left of highschool, it will be even better, more amazingly fun happy times. I cant wait.

As i look into the future, graduation, college, carerr, marriage, kids...I cant wait. I cant wait to see what in store for me! college is a scary thing to think about. Will i get in? where? will i be good enough? rejected? scholorships? sat? ahhhhhhh!

Prom is coming up and I cantttttt wait!!! I <333 Matt sooo much! makes my life sparkle soooo much!! He, being such a happy person, with an amazing smile is incredible! We have had alot of amazing times soo far and many more! <333 (:

Soooo...BEACH time!! i need a tan! haha The girlies and I are going for a night or two to ormond together! woot!!!

Well, i best get on my hw, American idol is on tonight!

With much love and laughter, LBB

REALLY????

can you believe it. I. ME. LAUREN. LAUREN BETHANY BROWN. I got written up today. WHAT???? all because of a note that i was writing during class. seriously? So Norona wrote me up. WTFFFF. so i went down to bevin, who read it and laughed, i mean, really, come on, im an AP student with a clear record, who is going to temper with my record now over such a measly thing. i was mad nontheless. clearly, any chance at leadership for next year had dwindled away.

So...contimplating the idea...do i go to a v-ball camp this summer and tryout for vball next year? idk yet...pondering on the idea.

Last weekend was amazingggggggggg with Matt!!!! The beach was sooooo much fun!! Roses are beautiful! (:

alrightyyyy h/w time guhhh

with much love and laughter, LB

happy!!!! (:

HEY!!! so today is the 11th of february!! 2/7 marks the day! ahhh he makes me smile sooo much! and i mean that when i say that. ahhh He is soooo sweet and cute it drives me crazy!!! I'm soooo glad we met! thanks neil! I cant wait for prom!!! i need to get a dresss!!! ahh mattttt im soo excited!! (: <3 (backwords smiley sideways heart!)

Sooo...alot of things have happened in the past few weeks! matt being one of them!!! (: but i also had solo and ensemble, in which i praticed the crappp out of the piece, soon to learn that i was playing it in the wrong key. long story short, i relearned the piece in the right key and ended up getting a superior on it!! WOOT! next year i will play a 5 so i can go to state!

Grades....yes, always a topic of discussion. I PASSED MY PHYSICS QUIZ!!! lol. i was sooo proud! haha. but then again...DOC WORTHMAN. omg. sooo i did the packet, and a friends forgot to do his so i let him copy mine... bad idea as i soon found out. yes, doc the mind reader found out and gave us both zeros. this is killlinggggg me. so embarrasing and its killing my grade. ahhhh.. :( not good. at least he didnt write me up though..i have a clean record and plan on keeping it that way! now i realllyyyy neeed to step it up and raise my grade...it will be a hard adventure...and im very nervous and concerned for my grade in that class, not to mention Doc prob hates me now. :(

On another note, my parents bdays were these past few days! haha, i thought it was sooo cute when my dad got my mommy flowers! awww!!! haha...

Nick is coming home today. maybe he will say hi this time and talk to me perhaps.

I got a membership at lifestyles!! so now im working out there, and i got a trainer who is gonna kick my assss! ahhhh. but i really need to work on it, loose some weight, gain some muscle, we all know the drill. lol

I cant wait for this saturday!! Beach on valentines with he cutie pie!! (:

welp, i best get on that psychology...lol. *sigh*

with much love and laughter, LBB

Smiling :D

These past few days I havent been able to stop smiling. I love talking with him, hes sooo nice, kind, cute, and has a great personality! I cant wait to hangout with him!!!

Neil=amazing. :)

report cards came in last week,...not good. i have alot of work to do, but i am VERY optimistic!

Have u ever just wanted to run wild, dance in the rain, swim naked? haha...well, u get the point, i love adventures! haha, lately i have been doing alot of biking, and i need to kayak once the weather warms up...wait, we are in FL, it is warm. haha

So, get this song...a few lyrics from Human by the Killers"

I did my best to noticewhen the call came down the lineup to the platform of surrenderI was brought but I was kindand sometimes I get nervouswhen I see an open door Close your eyes, clear your heartCut the cord are we human or are we dancermy sign is vital, my hands are cold and I´m on my knees looking for the answerare we human or are we dancer

love this song! kinda reminds me of myselfs in ways.

So, i believe things happen for a reason. they were ment to happen. maybe we learn from our mistakes and take that with us to the future for the better. but i do think that lately, things have been happening for a reason.

I'm really excited and looking forward to this next week!!! except for maybe my solo piece...which i hope goes well. but other than that, sunday will be great! and i cant wait till spring break! ;)

I've been going to the Y alot lately, so hopefully i can gain more muscle and lose some unneeded pounds so i can go to the beach and look HOTTT! ehhehe ;) well, at least make my self less self concious.

This is a really random blog. ;) I'm really happy right now!

I think people can change. i know i have changed since last year it seems in ways...yea physically (LOL) but mentally and emotionally as well. As for a certain someone, his actions may not be wise, yet somehow i still think he is a good person and can do right. until he finds himself and climbs himself out from that water well that he has seemed to fallen into, will things change. (2)

Valentines day is coming up! ;)

well, these are just a few thoughts running through my head! Someone is on my mind though! hehe :D good day today!

With much EXTRA Love and Laughter, LB